One question that surfaces in any breathing human at some point of their life. This question mostly might have stuck you , in most unfortunate, self seeking situations. I do not know whether you can agree with me, we are vulnerable to this question when our false defenses and barriers are down or even some time when we are in a situation where What we believe in, has let us down.
Intention of this blog is not to advise , but to put down my thoughts on life and the way it has shaped me. Well I am not saying that I found out the purpose or calling or destiny. But there are incites that made me change us a person , mold me as a human and gave me sight to look life in a different light. Why it is mentioned as post suicidal note ? well several times in my life situations have driven to the conclusion that I am not suppose to be living, and I needed to be off this ground. But something stopped me each and every time I contemplate it.
First of all if before reading it further, I want to make sure you got the term of ”greatness” in its right context.I remember reading from one of the Jewish website ”Many think that greatness consists of making giant leaps in the areas of business or personal character’ , to add my bit in it I feel greatness lies in making a giant leap in our thinking deep inside and our spiritual self. A Giant leap from thinking of ‘I >ME> MYSELF’ to ‘YOU > ME>US’. Ok, now I am bullshitting, I am suppose to relate my story stating my point on life’s worth and I am talking about greatness. People who know me well , would scream at this point ‘Peter is uttering as usual nonsense’; but I want get my basic value in life across to you , even though I would have come across otherwise . This what I believe in and it makes me evaluate all my situations in my life upon this. Sometime I measure myself upto it and find myself miserably failing , but I still keep on trying. Please do comment on this page and i will be uploading the rest of my pages , on weekly basis.
I feel the desire to leave the world stems from two big reasons. The main reason is of course when you become too self critical and have failed to live to your own standards. The second is when you look around and are so appalled by the world around you – which is a mixture of exactly the kind of people and environment which you have detested your whole life. But the important point is that we are still alive. And this act of hanging on even after being obsessed with yourself and your problems is a “great” feat in itself. Looking forward to more of your posts.
Hi paranoid penguin,
thanks for the comment. I was talking more about 1st part of the reasons that you have mentioned.. Looking back, it feels great that i did not give into negativeness, AND I AM HERE AND I SURVIVED… please do keep reading my blogs.. appreciate your encouragement.
Pete